I left my heart in GUAM

feelings....

2007-11-07T07:47:22Z

Everything in this world is very unclear...
we find ourselves in situation where we have
to choose... to choose happiness for yourself
or a happiness for someone else...

some people might call me a fool for

acting this way, some might call me a martyr.

but despite of everything else, i feel

like i made a right decision, it breaks me apart...

i recently found that i'm not the only person

trying to get his heart... many would say love

is very powerful, i know mine is, then why does my heart

feel like i have failed. everything that's happening causes

my heart to blee, cry, and feel the most excruciating pain...

however, i feel like her love for him is stronger than mine.

he seeks her when he needs help. he calls her when no one

is around. he likes her, but i'm not sure which like he means...

but all i know is that i am nothing compared to her.

nothing compared to what they both can accomplish..

i made a decision of trying to let him go.

but most of the time, i feel like he's always going to be in my

heart... waiting for that right moment to come..

letting go is hard. its very frustrating...

since i have learned from my mistakes, i have found out that

friendship is important to me. they are the only people

who understands the way i feel and knows me deep inside.

i sacrificed the love of my life so i could keep the friendship

not only with her, but also with him.

i hope that i could let go and forget about him.

forget the memories that caused my heart to laugh

and cry at the same time. for i am scared to fall in love

with him again....

he's the only guy i know that made me feel this way.

no one else, but him.

dbsk~ing

2007-02-03T04:51:43Z

OMFG i saw this and i'm so freakin mad!
why does the artist look so gloomy!
they should be happy or something... it
makes me feel so bad i swear!

or go here:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/e179684QxGjggf6

Invalid video URL.

DBSG

2006-11-22T18:14:37Z

OMFG

I never knew that this would happen to me...
but its all because of indicted

I blame you so much i swear..
oh well...

anyhow, back to my story...
just like her, i fell in LOVE

LOVE with DBSK/G
thanks indicted!

well that's it for now

i_should_die @ 2006-07-10T13:11:00

2006-07-10T20:12:38Z

♥HIATUS♥
I won't be able to blog or comment on anyone for a while... there's a reason why i'm going to be in HIATUS... only exeunt knows(will know)... well that's it for now... hope you guys
have fun!

LAST week of SCHOOL

2006-06-17T02:18:56Z

these pictures were acutally taken
a while back ago... i'm not quite
sure but i think it was the last week
of school for everybody else... LOL...

TEASERS:

Me in TF, ANNE, Monique-Jamiela

both pictures in Tech Futures Class, Jamiela and I

Ruben-Monique, Me in the bus, Me showing pride of my class

showing my class (again), Me-Monique, Me again

Monique-Me, Monique, ME (jealous?)

Monique and i doing something, Jamiela

Jamiela, Jamiela, Monique eating a fry

our fries, sexy me, and a bloody fry (joke)

Me, Monique, and me doing some s2pid pose

More of my s2pid pose... i was bored in class

Dorian-Monique, Dorian and i jumping, Dorian jumping

Me jumping, Monique-Jamiela eating, Dorian and I

we are such messy eaters! who isn't?, showing my chest (what chest?)

me, me, dorian and i doing some sexy pose

Monique flying, Jamiela-Dorian-Monique pose, Me-Dorian-Jamiela pose

monique, dorian pole dancing, dorian and i (ghetto fabulous)

Jamiela, Monique, Jamila

Jamiela-Monique, Monique, Dorian trying to jump

Dorian jumping, Monique, SEXY POSE OF ME!

Bus # we're trying to catch, Jamiela, SUPER DORIAN!

Monique and I's GHETTO FABULOUS look

Jamiela's and Monique's GHETTO FABULOUS LOOK!

I LOOK FAT Jamiela, Jamiela

dorian, dorian and i (my lips were chappy), Monique putting gloss

Monique, Dorian and I, Monique

Monique, Jamiela, and I!

ok that's it... if i have more pictures, i will
post them... lol... i hope anyone who's looking
at this is actually enjoying looking at it...
♥,
jack-o-salla

PRE-GRAD/GRADUATION (6-9-06)

2006-06-12T23:47:39Z

well here are some of the pre-grad
and during the grad pictures... hope
you guys enjoy it!

PRE-GRAD PRACTICE
teasers:

OUT THE HOUSE, IN THE CAR, WAITING TO GO INSIDE THE GYM

TRYING THE CAP ON, SAURAB DRIVING, TROJAN GETTIN IN THE CAR

TROJAN, JOYCE, ME WAITING OUTSIDE THE GYM

JOYCE DIDN'T WANT A PICTURE BUT POSTED ANYHOW, RANDOM PIC, JOYCE

ME AND JOYCE'S SHADOW, TRYING TO MAKE STARS

STAR ATTEMPT, THE CHAIRS IN THE GYM, ABOUT 100+ PEOPLE GRADUATING

JOYCE'S HAIR AND SOMEONE'S FEET

TINA, AK, AND JUVY'S BACK

JOYCE, JUVY, SAURAB SAYING HE CAN'T EAT MEAT

TROJAN, ME IN THE CAR, ME PREPARING FOR GRAD

GRADUATION AND EATING AT EAST(ERN) BUFFET

BRENDA-ME, TROJAN-BRENDA-ME, AUNTIE LISA (TROJAN'S MOM)-AUNTIE LILY

LIZA-ME-LILY, ME-AUNT, TROJAN'S MOM-TROJAN

ME, NOORIE-ME, SNAPSHOT OF JUVY

SNAPSHOT OF MARK, JOYCE-ME, SNAPSHOT OF PATRICK (COUSIN)

JOYCE AND PATRICK, DIANNE-TINA, DEMETRIUS (VALEDICTORIAN)-PATRICK

IVAN, PATRICK-IVAN-ME, PATRICK-DEANGELO

LILY-TROJAN-LIZA, TORJAN-BRENDA, AUNT VIDEOTAPING

LIZA-TROJAN, ME-TROJAN, ME-TROJAN (YES I'M SHORT)

ME, TROJAN'S AUNT W/ ME (X2)

PATRICK, TROJAN-ME-PATRICK, TROJAN-NOORIE-ME

NOORIE-SAURAB-NOORIE'S SIS, TROJAN-BRENDA-ME(CUT), BRENDA-ME

PATRICK, AUNTS, TROJAN-BRENDA (ALL EATING)

ME, AND AUNT DELIA

that's it for now... it was an ok grad...
everything was interesting... hope you
like... LOL...
♥,
jack-o-salla

just boredom i guess

2006-06-12T22:35:52Z

ok.. these pictures are when i was
in school, going somewhere and.. well
some random thingy... LOL...
(caption will be included later)

OUTSIDE #1
teasers:

ME, MY SEXY SHADOW, and MONIQUE & JAMIELA

Me, my distorted me, and weird me

weird me 2, our sexy shadows, and well me again

ME, MONIQUE AND ME AGAIN!

ME, JAMIELA, AND JAMIELA (AGAIN!)

MONIQUE, ME AND ME EATING FRUIT GUSHERS!

ME, ME, AND JAMIELA (AGAIN!)

SPANISH CLASS #1

CLASSMATES, CLASSMATES, NOORIE HIDING FROM ME

MARKEISHA W/ ME, OUR PERMANENT SUB TEACHER MS. PEREZ

HER AGAIN, CLASS, JEREMIAH & LESLIE IN THE COUCH

THEM AGAIN, TRACY FLYING, AND MONIQUE

SHOT 1, SHOT 2, DAVID TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM ME

MS. PEREZ AND ME, THEN ME AND NOORIE

TECH FUTURES CLASS (BREAK TIME)

CLASSMATES EATING, DORIAN, AND THE TWINS

JAMIELA, MONIQUE, AND I WAITING FOR THE BUS

ME, AND THE TWINS FIGHTING

BOREDOM IN POLLOCK'S CLASS

TROJAN, ME AND TINA (X2)

ME & TINA AGAIN, ME-NOORIE-TROJAN, NOORIE-TROJAN-TINA

TINA DOING SOMETHING, NOORIE-ME, NOORIE-ME-TROJAN

CONTINUATION... SPANISH CLASS #2

TROJAN-TINA-ME, GENESIS, LESLIE-NOORIE-MARKEISHA

GENESIS DIDN'T WANT PICTURE TAKEN, LESLIE-NOORIE-MARKEISHA

JEREMIAH-COZETTE-ERICA (X2), GENESIS AND I

LESLIE-ME, MARKEISHA-GENESIS, ERICA-COZETTE-KERMIT

OUTSIDE #2

JAMIELA, MONIQUE AND I

JAMIELA-ME, MONIQUE AND ME (X2)

MONIQUE, JAMIELA, AND ME

ME, JAMIELA, MONIQUE

MONIQUE, JAMIELA, MONIQUE

EATING AT CHURCH CHICKEN BY THE WAY

JAMIELA, ME, AND THE INSIDE OF THE STRAW!

TWO CUTE DOGGIES THAT ARE SO ADORABLE

MONIQUE, JAMIELA, AND ME..

ok that's it... there will be more pictures
that's going to be posted... just bored i
guess and i have nothing to do!

MEMORIAL DAY (05-29-06)

2006-06-02T17:31:31Z

I know that this is late, but at
least i posted it... this day is
so funny...
i have to warn you though... there's
a lot of pictures of me... that's
how much i love myself! LOL... and
there's no captions... manybe if i have
time, i'll edit this and put captions
on it...

TEASERS:ME... and TROJAN

i_should_die @ 2006-06-01T10:04:00

2006-06-01T17:14:15Z

well anyhow, i was bored at school
and we didn't do anything for my
ECONOMICS teacher
so we just hung out... here's
a couple of pictures that we took
during the class... click the
pictures to enlarge them!

THIS IS ME and TROJAN! NOORIE AND TINA

Deanke wanted a pic... NOORIE AND TINA

Nongka moving and JUVY writing something

Trojan and Joyce... and then with me!

NOORIE... NOORIE... NOORIE

TINA...TINA...TINA

JOYCE looking funny..and us w/o NOORIE

pectures....

2006-05-12T17:51:16Z

well here's just couple of pictures
that i want to post... it was taken
04-14-2006! i know it was late
but my computer broke down so i have
to find a way to pu these pictures in
the computer, so i'm doing it in school!

here's my cousin Patrick!
we were leaving the house

here's Monique and Terrone...
(I think i spelled that right)

here's Monique and Joel
fooling around during lunch

Monique eating...

Monique with her LOLLIPOP!

Me just fooling around
with the camera

Trojan... well he's my
KABABAYAN!

my tech futures
classmates!

Jeremiah and Sarah...

me being a sore loser
that i really am!

i look so funny here...
i'm with Monique here

Jamiela... did i mention
that Monique and Jamiela
are twins?

Jamiela doing something,
while Monique's getting
her bus pass..

me again...

the hallways of
KENNEDY HIGH SCHOOL!

on our way to the
lavatory!

me waiting for the
twins to get off the
bathroom... i took
some pictures of it,
but its best that i
don't post it!

ok... i was really
bored!

its the school and me!

"turn right only!"

Jamiela picking up
trash!...

the pretty sun...
i can watch the
eclipse with this
camera if it
ever happened here!

my beautiful self

the twins

more me!

i was trying to take
a picture with all
of us... but i couldn't
do it right!

well here's a better pic
of the twins!

Me and Monique

Me and Jamiela

Me, Ruben, and Jamiela

trying to take a picture
of... forgot his name

just some random
pictures..

well that's it for now..
will post more when i get
the chance!

♥,
jack-o-salla

OMFG

2006-05-11T17:45:28Z

ok something bad really
happened... i think i got caught
its just so sad... i'm just
crazy...

ok... right now i'm in school...
i wen to check on my photobucket...
tapos, tinignan ko ang mga pictures
ko... meron akong picture ng
crush ko doon... katabi ko panaman
ang friend nya... nakita kaya nya?

its the only way i could write this...
i'm just freakin scared... goshiness..
well that's it for now...

BOREDOM: duh

2006-05-02T15:20:26Z

Me love this... goshiness...
ok nothing else.. just bored..

prom is coming up and i'm really excited
for the people who are going!

oh well.. that's it for now

♥,
jack-o-salla

prom planS?

2006-04-18T21:36:03Z

well if you haven't noticed, but i'm
not planning on going to my senior
prom... it sucks right? i really want
to go to my senior prom back in guam
but i guess i can't... it really does
chap my ass... i want to be there for
my friends graduation but i can't...
*sigh*
anyhow... joanne, my bestfriend
that lives in Washington, planned to
pick me up to go to her senior prom...
i'm really excited... but there's this
feeling that i have that i won't be
able to go... oh how i wish that i
could go... i just hope that i have
enough money to go at least to her
prom... well i wonder if it would happen
i really want it to happen...you don't
know how i want it... well anyhow
that's it for now
♥,
jack-o-salla

nothing

2006-04-03T17:21:36Z

well i'm in the class right now... i'm really bored
nothing to do but just wait until the bell rings..
so sorry... well i'm actually scared
i don't know what i'm scared of,but i'm scared..
i really don't know what to think..
every little thing scares me...
why? am i getting crazy? i really don't think so
why is this happening to me?
why am i like this?
why am i such full of drama?
why the hell am i typing this?
oh well, life's a bitch
until next time
♥,
jack-o-salla

nothing i guess

2006-03-27T18:56:17Z

gosh... i think that i've
been doing something bad...
i haven't called my friends
for a while now and i miss
them so much..
i really don't know what to do..
its either they are busy with
their lives or i'm busy with my
life...
i wanted to visit guam and
philippines before i go off
to college. it would be really
nice to have fun for the last
time with my close friends and
have fun memories with them.
i know no one will die here,
but you might never know
when you will die...
i guess i just want to be
there for them. i won't be
able to visit guam and the
philippines 'til next year
which really sucks...
i guess life isn't planned
well...
until next time
i'll see you guys
next time

Wala lang

2006-03-24T20:57:08Z

me bored... here in my economics clas...
well if your gonnna ask... we are doing
a stock project thingy... and so far
i'm losing money big time... i'm not
really that crazy about it, but it would
be really nice to be winning at something
well i guess that's it... just bored
and miss you guys so much

i_should_die @ 2006-03-23T09:17:00

2006-03-23T17:13:04Z

well everything seems to be very complicated...
right now, i have to take a test called
"CAHSEE"
right now, i have to take a test called
"CAHSEE" test... which stands for
California High School Exit Exam
right now, i have to take a test called
"CAHSEE" test... which stands for
California High School Exit Exam...
gosh... if i don't pass that, i won't
be able to get my
well i actually tok it already..
damn i'm so scared..

well actuallyi'm kinda happy that
i have a chance of being
in the top ten...
gosh... you know how hard it is
to be in top-ten in guam?
so hard i swear...
gosh... it would even be more
shocking if i became valedictorian
don't you think so?
that would so cool...
gosh...
let's just hope that i would
be around top five or something...
people here don't care
about school that's why..
you think guam is bad,
try living here..
its worse...
♥,
jack-o-salla

Life's a bitch

2006-03-17T20:45:39Z

well right now i'm a the computer room and nothing to do.
my love for all my friends has helped me get through the
day...
well i have made new friends and i'm actually somewhat ok
they are actually twins and i came to be close to them
their names are
Jamiela and Monique Davis..
they are really cool
but i'll tell you more and
put more pictures when i get the chance
i wish i could have more friends
*sigh*
♥
jack-o-salla

again?

2006-03-09T15:59:00Z

Well its been a while... i'm not sure if i like this... but hey, i'm here... What would i do if i wake up in the morning and felt that i have been eaten and spitted out...
well i always feel that way... my emotions are going
everywhere...
♥,
jack-o-salla

nothing

2006-02-25T05:21:30Z

well i know i haven't been writing my thoughts or something like that for like a year or so...
alot of things has happened and i can't belive that it had to happen like that if only i could turn back time, then i wouldn't have made the mistake that i did... i'm not sure if i'm suppose to regret it or not, but i just don't know...
its really confusing... i hope someone will help me get through what i'm feeling right now... i guess i'm just really homesick you know what i mean?
oh well that's life...
♥,
jack-o-salla

Homecoming… a night to remember… for me…

2005-10-06T13:23:20Z

Well I was so bored yesterday… I didn’t know what to do I was suppose to go somewhere right after work or something like that… bu I just figured that I’ll just go to the homecoming instead… however, Jackie, who failed to inform me that she hasn’t left her house yet, left me all alone in K-mart… good thing I found Melanie… so I helped her shop in K-mart and yeah… I was so god-damn bored I swear… well I gave Melanie discount in K-mart because I had that discount paper thingy so yeah… well anyhow, after she left, I went to the mall and bought a red shirt for work… I really need a red shirt because the red shirt that I have really sucks… haha… well I also bought that cologne that I always use… I ran out or someone stole my cologne that’s why…
Well after shopping for five minutes, I tried calling Nessie’s cell, but no one would pick up the phone… so yeah… once again, I called Jackie and that slutty whore told me she’s in the homecoming already… so I went straight there… we won… and yeah… well anyhow after that we went to the dance and I helped out… the girls decorate the prom and yeah… so I was the person writing on people… I was like… OMFG so many arms to sign… but it was all worth it when GOLD FISH’S arm was signed by me… I actually touched GOLD FISH’S hand for the first time… I was smiling the whole time… well inside so it wouldn’t show… *sigh* I wish I could turn back time again… well GOLD FISH didn’t dance ‘til later… funny so did I… I didn’t want to dance at all because GOLD FISH was there with me…funny how I wanted to dance at this particular song and then GOLD FISH started to dance too… OMFG… I swear it was so funny… GOLD FISH and I even had a conversation… yes longer than five seconds this time… I swear… I kept telling Elaine how happy I am… of course who wouldn’t be happy… damn… anyhow… Rhea, Rachel, Justine, Marie, well all those people kept asking why am I not dancing… all I could say hello look…. And then they would just “ohhhhh…. I see now….”… ok stop with the whole thing… I left the dance around 10 or something like that… dropped Nessie home and I guess that was it… I didn’t know what else to do…. All I can tell you people is when I slept, I was smiling….

OMFG

2005-08-31T23:07:08Z

OMFG
well life is so hectic... everything seems to go in a bad situation after another (does that even make sense?) well i guess that this is just it... i'm just bored i guess... ok.. byes

Happy BIrthday

2005-08-22T23:32:25Z

Today is Rachel's birthday... yeay.. she's 18... well i'm so happy because we get to go clubbing and Justine and those losers can't go... haha...

well this morning my father got mad at me because i left my license at home and i was suppose to get my parking decal... damn.. my father cursed perfusely at me... and criticzed my driving... well i know that i drive recklessly... i know it... stop looking malakikilou..... damn i'm so hot... ok byes now...

nothign

2005-08-16T22:59:12Z

well school started and everything seems to be very weird... well here's my schedule

period 1 -- Nothing
period 2 -- Psychology (will drop it)
Period 3 -- Pre cal (OMFG its so hard)
Period 4 -- Spanish II (need to finish it)
Period 5 -- Nothing
Period 6 -- Honors Choir (yeay)

anyhow... i'm content with my class right now... except psychology... i really hate the fact that i might not graduate at all.. anyhow.. i need to drop psychology for a science credit... haha.. well i'm at school and i'm not starting school yet... Rachel is so funny
ok i guess this is is.... byes for now homos

Jack-O-Salla

hahah

2005-07-17T05:31:23Z

well i'm so god-damn bored... nothing to do with my life.. i hven't posted much here because i don't know what to do...well if you want to see new posts of my fuckin life.. go to my xanga... its so cool.. well sign-up for one or say something in my chatter box... its in the bottom by the way...ok that's it for now... bye bitches