| feelings.... |
[Nov. 6th, 2007|11:46 pm] |
Everything in this world is very unclear... we find ourselves in situation where we have to choose... to choose happiness for yourself or a happiness for someone else...
some people might call me a fool for
acting this way, some might call me a martyr.
but despite of everything else, i feel
like i made a right decision, it breaks me apart...
i recently found that i'm not the only person
trying to get his heart... many would say love
is very powerful, i know mine is, then why does my heart
feel like i have failed. everything that's happening causes
my heart to blee, cry, and feel the most excruciating pain...
however, i feel like her love for him is stronger than mine.
he seeks her when he needs help. he calls her when no one
is around. he likes her, but i'm not sure which like he means...
but all i know is that i am nothing compared to her.
nothing compared to what they both can accomplish..
i made a decision of trying to let him go.
but most of the time, i feel like he's always going to be in my
heart... waiting for that right moment to come..
letting go is hard. its very frustrating...
since i have learned from my mistakes, i have found out that
friendship is important to me. they are the only people
who understands the way i feel and knows me deep inside.
i sacrificed the love of my life so i could keep the friendship
not only with her, but also with him.
i hope that i could let go and forget about him.
forget the memories that caused my heart to laugh
and cry at the same time. for i am scared to fall in love
with him again....
he's the only guy i know that made me feel this way.
no one else, but him. |
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| dbsk~ing |
[Feb. 2nd, 2007|08:51 pm] |
OMFG i saw this and i'm so freakin mad! why does the artist look so gloomy! they should be happy or something... it makes me feel so bad i swear!
or go here: http://www.veoh.com/videos/e179684QxGjggf6
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| DBSG |
[Nov. 22nd, 2006|11:14 am] |
OMFG
I never knew that this would happen to me... but its all because of indicted
I blame you so much i swear.. oh well...
anyhow, back to my story... just like her, i fell in LOVE
LOVE with DBSK/G thanks indicted!
well that's it for now
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[Jul. 10th, 2006|01:11 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | hiatus | ] |
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♥HIATUS♥ I won't be able to blog or comment on anyone for a while... there's a reason why i'm going to be in HIATUS... only exeunt knows(will know)... well that's it for now... hope you guys have fun! |
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| LAST week of SCHOOL |
[Jun. 16th, 2006|06:45 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | me, pictures | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
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| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | [Elliot Yamin] home | ] |
these pictures were acutally taken a while back ago... i'm not quite sure but i think it was the last week of school for everybody else... LOL... TEASERS:  Me in TF, ANNE, Monique-Jamiela ( see 78 pictures ) |
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| PRE-GRAD/GRADUATION (6-9-06) |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|03:37 pm] |
well here are some of the pre-grad and during the grad pictures... hope you guys enjoy it! PRE-GRAD PRACTICEteasers:  OUT THE HOUSE, IN THE CAR, WAITING TO GO INSIDE THE GYM ( 68 pictures here ) |
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| just boredom i guess |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|02:15 pm] |
ok.. these pictures are when i was in school, going somewhere and.. well some random thingy... LOL... (caption will be included later) OUTSIDE #1teasers:  ME, MY SEXY SHADOW, and MONIQUE & JAMIELA ( see all 96 pictures ) |
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| MEMORIAL DAY (05-29-06) |
[Jun. 2nd, 2006|10:03 am] |
I know that this is late, but at least i posted it... this day is so funny... i have to warn you though... there's a lot of pictures of me... that's how much i love myself! LOL... and there's no captions... manybe if i have time, i'll edit this and put captions on it... TEASERS:ME... and TROJAN ( click here ) |
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[Jun. 1st, 2006|10:04 am] |
well anyhow, i was bored at school and we didn't do anything for my ECONOMICS teacher so we just hung out... here's a couple of pictures that we took during the class... click the pictures to enlarge them!  THIS IS ME and TROJAN! NOORIE AND TINA ( more to see ) |
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| pectures.... |
[May. 12th, 2006|10:23 am] |
well here's just couple of pictures that i want to post... it was taken 04-14-2006! i know it was late but my computer broke down so i have to find a way to pu these pictures in the computer, so i'm doing it in school!
 here's my cousin Patrick! we were leaving the house
 here's Monique and Terrone... (I think i spelled that right)
( more to see here )
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| OMFG |
[May. 11th, 2006|10:42 am] |
ok something bad really happened... i think i got caught its just so sad... i'm just crazy...
ok... right now i'm in school... i wen to check on my photobucket... tapos, tinignan ko ang mga pictures ko... meron akong picture ng crush ko doon... katabi ko panaman ang friend nya... nakita kaya nya?
its the only way i could write this... i'm just freakin scared... goshiness.. well that's it for now... |
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| BOREDOM: duh |
[May. 2nd, 2006|08:27 am] |
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Me love this... goshiness... ok nothing else.. just bored..
prom is coming up and i'm really excited for the people who are going!
oh well.. that's it for now
♥, jack-o-salla
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| prom planS? |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|02:32 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | CAFE | ] |
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| | sad | ] |
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| | MYMP | ] |
well if you haven't noticed, but i'm not planning on going to my senior prom... it sucks right? i really want to go to my senior prom back in guam but i guess i can't... it really does chap my ass... i want to be there for my friends graduation but i can't... *sigh* anyhow... joanne, my bestfriend that lives in Washington, planned to pick me up to go to her senior prom... i'm really excited... but there's this feeling that i have that i won't be able to go... oh how i wish that i could go... i just hope that i have enough money to go at least to her prom... well i wonder if it would happen i really want it to happen...you don't know how i want it... well anyhow that's it for now ♥, jack-o-salla
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| nothing |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|10:26 am] |
well i'm in the class right now... i'm really bored nothing to do but just wait until the bell rings.. so sorry... well i'm actually scared i don't know what i'm scared of,but i'm scared.. i really don't know what to think.. every little thing scares me... why? am i getting crazy? i really don't think so why is this happening to me? why am i like this? why am i such full of drama? why the hell am i typing this? oh well, life's a bitch until next time ♥, jack-o-salla
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| nothing i guess |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|10:58 am] |
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| | the sound of students talking | ] | gosh... i think that i've been doing something bad... i haven't called my friends for a while now and i miss them so much.. i really don't know what to do.. its either they are busy with their lives or i'm busy with my life... i wanted to visit guam and philippines before i go off to college. it would be really nice to have fun for the last time with my close friends and have fun memories with them. i know no one will die here, but you might never know when you will die... i guess i just want to be there for them. i won't be able to visit guam and the philippines 'til next year which really sucks... i guess life isn't planned well... until next time i'll see you guys next time |
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| Wala lang |
[Mar. 24th, 2006|01:02 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | the chatting of students | ] |
me bored... here in my economics clas... well if your gonnna ask... we are doing a stock project thingy... and so far i'm losing money big time... i'm not really that crazy about it, but it would be really nice to be winning at something well i guess that's it... just bored and miss you guys so much
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[Mar. 23rd, 2006|09:17 am] |
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| | scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the sound of students talking | ] |
well everything seems to be very complicated... right now, i have to take a test called "CAHSEE" right now, i have to take a test called "CAHSEE" test... which stands for California High School Exit Exam right now, i have to take a test called "CAHSEE" test... which stands for California High School Exit Exam... gosh... if i don't pass that, i won't be able to get my well i actually tok it already.. damn i'm so scared..
well actuallyi'm kinda happy that i have a chance of being in the top ten... gosh... you know how hard it is to be in top-ten in guam? so hard i swear... gosh... it would even be more shocking if i became valedictorian don't you think so? that would so cool... gosh... let's just hope that i would be around top five or something... people here don't care about school that's why.. you think guam is bad, try living here.. its worse... ♥, jack-o-salla
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| Life's a bitch |
[Mar. 17th, 2006|12:50 pm] |
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| | noise of other students | ] | well right now i'm a the computer room and nothing to do. my love for all my friends has helped me get through the day... well i have made new friends and i'm actually somewhat ok they are actually twins and i came to be close to them their names are Jamiela and Monique Davis.. they are really cool but i'll tell you more and put more pictures when i get the chance i wish i could have more friends *sigh* ♥ jack-o-salla |
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| again? |
[Mar. 9th, 2006|08:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] | Well its been a while... i'm not sure if i like this... but hey, i'm here... What would i do if i wake up in the morning and felt that i have been eaten and spitted out... well i always feel that way... my emotions are going everywhere... ♥, jack-o-salla |
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| nothing |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|09:18 pm] |
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| | Destiny's Child [Cater to you} | ] | well i know i haven't been writing my thoughts or something like that for like a year or so... alot of things has happened and i can't belive that it had to happen like that if only i could turn back time, then i wouldn't have made the mistake that i did... i'm not sure if i'm suppose to regret it or not, but i just don't know... its really confusing... i hope someone will help me get through what i'm feeling right now... i guess i'm just really homesick you know what i mean? oh well that's life... ♥, jack-o-salla |
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